| | Any ambition I harbored about reading Nouwen as some sort of intellectual exercise was shattered yesterday as I dissolved into choking sobs near the beginning of the first chapter. In these pages I hear the invitation to continue to let God have the last word.
The day before the students arrived at our chapter camp in May I wrote the following prayer:
abba,
small, frightened, and desperately wanting to please...i need to be found, scooped up, and held until i believe that i'm enough. only you can tell me who i am. you get the last word.
love,
andrea
He issued the invitation a long time ago, of that I am certain, but my eyes are finally opened to it and I am saying "yes."
It is not a safe invitation. I think C.S. Lewis put it best in the words of one of his Narnian characters: He is not safe, but He is good.
I find David's words in Psalm 27 so very fitting:
I am still confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the LORD
in the land of the living.
Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD.
Boldness in waiting - not my area of expertise, but there is nothing like being thrown in the deep, deep end to force an expedited learning curve.
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